Christmas Cards....

So I make my list for Christmas cards and put everyone that mean a lot to me on it. Apparently sending cards for my ex family and mutual friends of ours wasn't the best idea. Even though we are trying to work things out, it's seems that sending separate cards is a sock to everyone. I don't know what the hell to do with this now. My heart was in the right place but maybe I shouldn't have sent anything at all. 😢

Ego, is what keeps you from being truthful...

This time last year everything was different

It's been about three months or so since I broke off things with my ex. I didn't realize that my depression had gotten so bad that ultimately I made the biggest decision. I don't regret making that decision because it has ultimately help me realize a lot of things about myself, what I want and that being quiet about it will never help.
I had spent the first 2 1/2 months so bitter and angry, that I really never stopped to considered what he was going through. Resentment is such a strong emotion and its hard to see past all the hurt when all you see is disappointment and anger and feeling so utterly useless. All the why's in the world don't change the fact that feeling let down by someone you love hurts more that being let down by your own family members.
Don't ever set an expectation if you never truly say it out loud to whom ever it is you have that expectation. It's not the persons fault when they fail, they didn't know. I learned that you have to state everything that you want someone to know, for only then can you be happy with yourself to have a healthy relationship with anyone. Expectation can only be met by people who want to give you what you want. Then again just because you expect it doesn't mean that that person will come through. I was fortunate enough to fall in love with someone who loved me, but I walked away because I had these expectation and when he fail to met them I was disappointed. Although I never talked to him about it, I never expressed my feeling when I should have. Maybe things could be different.
I hope that I can explain and I hope that we could get through this...if not its a lesson that I will learn but that ultimately will be the most painful. I know I can live my life without him, but I don't want to. We had an amazing six years with some obstacles thrown our way and we made through each one now I hope we can get through this too..........,,

The mystery

He came and took me by the hand
Up to a red rose tree,
He kept his meaning to Himself,
But gave a rose to me.

I did not pray him to lay bare
The mystery to me;
Enough the rose was heaven to smell,
And his own face to see.
~Ralph Hodgson

Savannah, GA

A beautiful day, in an amazing city Savannah, GA. It has beautiful history and amazing character. The locals are friendly and some are crazy. I couldn't have asked to have a better person to be with me, than my wonderful boyfriend! We had such an amazing time walking through the city and seeing these amazing homes that have been around since 1733. The atmosphere in the city is amazing, early evening on the Savannah River Front had live music by native soul and jazz players. We also walked The 22 park-like squares and got to see all the different style homes from different eras of time around each park. It was an amazing day, with wonderful sights, and it ended with an amazing dinner at Flying Fish. A hidden secret local gem way out on Tybee Island. Know to be the great hot stop by locals for the best seafood. And I got to do this with the most amazing man ever!

Road trip! Road trip!

Leaving in 10min. Savannah here we come!

D-day almost here!

So I only have 9 hrs and 45 min till I embark in the most amazing trip with the man of my life. So excited, I hope I can sleep most of the night.... If not my first night will be in Savannah,GA. How exciting is that?

East coast trip!

So there is a little over 24 hrs before my boyfriend and I leave for our road trip. I am so happy and excited. I have packed everything, the only things I need is my cell charger and tooth brush.
Tuesday morning I embark on an amazing trip to the East Coast of the United States. Final destination being Connecticut for Julz wedding. On the way we will see amazing places. I can't wait. I hope I can sleep! Good night world.

Getting ready!!!

So it's Saturday night and I am getting ready for an amazing road trip up to Connecticut. My boyfriend and I are leaving Tuesday morning! So excited, I am having a hard time sleeping. This is officially our first trip outside of Florida. I am definitely sure we will have the time of our life's. I feel overly happy. Two days in counting. Can't wait!